very quick list of what I sincerely want to give thanks to Father and Mother:

• was able to feel my p. mother's love, care, attention, and security for me
• was able to pray in ministop
• was able to buy something for s. franz
• was able to visit with sis athena
• was able to see s. franz, and was able to have her watch a ucc video
• was able to reach Balic-Balic, but sad no s. kisses :( still, TY to elohim!
• was able to talk to deacon mic, bro. aaron, and mis. jez 
• was able to meet s. ima, a very very good fruit
• was able to wear daejayoun shirt
• was able to actually "contribute" something small for the short term
• was able to talk to dr. rubio and was  able to set an activity date and venue for daejayoun
• was able to realize the importance of God-given talents
• was able to utilize some of it earlier, i hope so :(
• was able to not eat dinner for my bros and sis
• was able to suggest somethinig for cm's exhibit, but just suggest
• was able to re-check translation of Savior and judge
• was able to watch Mystery Babylon the Great
• was able to meet s. minerva
• was able to share a lot of beautiful fragrance to s. abby
• was able to talk to sis hanna chan, monty tan, and jica lapena
• was able to read 1 chapter of mystery
• was able to text some sisters, though not all
• was able to realize how give glory to God

I have to overcome my fear in preaching in PUVs

Here how the story goes:

I and sis Mheira went to UST to visit Sister Franz. On our way home, we rode a bus but I had had to stand-up for there were no vacant seats left. Moments later, a man came beside me and told me, "Miss, upuan." [Miss, a seat] So I said, "O, thank you!"

From that time on until we reached Quezon Ave., I've been staring at this guy. I don't know but it's as though as if my Holy Spirit was telling me, "Go on, preach to him." But of course, my mind and heart were hesistating, thinking that he's a guy, he might think I'm just playing around looking for someone to flirt on, or other people might look at me thinking I'm crazy, etcetera etcetera...

So I prayed - and hesitated - all at the same time. My mind has gone wild. I really don't know what to do. So I paused and just thought of giving a brochure to him when I go down.

But Father and Mother pushed me to do the impossible. For the past year of my faith, I never had had the courage of preaching in Public Utility Vehicles, so, they asked me to just speak and they will do the rest.

Here's how our conversation run:

Guy: UST ka? [Do you study in UST?]

Me: Uhm, no. UP.

Guy: A.

Me: I just visited someone in UST.

Guy: I see.

Me: You?

Guy: FEU.

Me: A..

Guy: What's your course?

Me: Creative Writing. (during this time i was so ecstatic i cannot contain. I want to shout about my Father and Mother)

Guy: *confused* (he wasn't able to understand the nature of my course)

Me: I write. *laughs*

Guy: Oh.

Me: You?

Guy: Nursing. UP ka pala, matalino ka pala! [You must be smart, you study in UP e?]

Me: No! Actually, (so here's my time to shine haha) I came from Elohim Academy. I just wanna give you this brochure. Please read it if you have time and kindly text me. My cell number's at the back.

Guy: O, this is you? Miss Yane?

Me: Yup. Please read it. If you find it interesting, text me immediately.

Guy: Okay.

Me: I have to go in a while.. Please text me as soon as you read it.

Guy: Sure, no worries!

Until now, I don't know how to react about what had happened. First, it has always been my fear to preach in PUVs. Next, I always had the thought that guys would look down upon me if I started talking to them. I was so torn earlier I really didn't know what to do. I almost feel like giving up. But Father and Mother opened the way and the man spoke up. I was really shocked. It doesn't usually happen, that's why I'm so thankful....

I have been praying that he would become our heavenly brother even though I wasn't able to formally preach to him. The thought of it breaks my heart.

So, I prayed once more that God would give me courage to preach in PUVs. And I tried it on my way home tonight, while riding in a jeepney, I talked to a nurse of V. Luna hospital beside me. Since she didn't looked so interested, I just gave her a brochure, praying that her soul might be led to Zion by reading it.

And, it was actually my first time to do such things... alone. Well, before I had the chance to preach in jeepneys with Sis. Tiff and D. Phil, but that was the first and the last. Until now. I'm so thankful for my Father and Mother allowed me to share the gospel even in an unusual place.

It was so amazing to preach in such places for I can really feel Father's coming is drawing nearer and nearer. Therefore, anywhere should be preaching place.

[Heavenly Father and Mother, help me to not be afraid, but to boast about our God forever and ever anywhere I go.. Because even them, they have to be saved.]

I am a sinner

I am a real sinner. I am destined to die in everlasting hell.

I could not understand why does my Heavenly Father and Mother need to sacrifice for me? I did grievous sins against their will. I betrayed and mistreated them of their love. Who am I? I don't deserve such abundant grace. Right now, I should have been suffering in hell. But through Their great love I was redeemed.

i could never thank Them enough. :(

Fear not of being perfect

Fear of being perfect - this has always been my sickness. I wasn't able to start any gospel task because I always thought it was so difficult and I could never make it perfect. But this actually hindered me in growing in my faith.

Thanks to Father and Mother. They thought me how to overcome it.

1. Pray a lot.

Satan has been doing his best to make you feel afraid. But you have your shield - faith and prayers.

2. Try.

It doesn't matter if you commit a mistake, as long as it's not intentional, you can surely learn from it. Every mistake opens a learning zone.

3. Try again.

If you failed once, will you be afraid of trying once more? Remember, the time now has changed. Mother and Father has always been working for our salvation, thus you are not alone. They have already prepared everything. Therefore, all you have to do is to try and try and try and try again. When they see the eagerness of your heart, they would surely grant your request.

4. Don't think of being perfect. Think like our Heavenly Mother.

Would a Mother easily give up finding her sons and daughters? Would Mother easily give up in taking care and feeding her lambs? Would Mother easily give up on us? No. Why? She's our God the Mother. She only wants what's best for us - Kingdom of Heaven.

Fear not of being perfect for we are still sinners. We must pray, study, and preach hard so that we can become perfect soon and go back to Heaven :)

Are you having Satan-ic thoughts now?

Then turn those into God-ly thoughts.

Since we are just humans, we are easily tempted by Satan in various ways. It could be on how we look at our brothers and sisters, about our feelings toward our leaders, about our lacking in courage and strength, and many more. If we feel some negative thoughts coming up our way, then we must be alert and immediately turn it into something negative.

For a Deacon once said to me, "Just like a roller coaster, our life of faith goes up and down."

Right now, is our mind filled with so many negative thoughts? Are we being eaten up by the worries and troubles of life? Do we easily get hurt by a wrong attitude of a brother or sister?

Then, this is the perfect time to check our faith - maybe we are spiritually sick.

How can we manage to be spiritually well again?

Here on Earth, if we are sick, what do we do? We go to a clinic and/or pharmacy, take some medicines, and take some rest. Since we are sick we can't easily go out and have fun, right?

Then spiritually, we must go to our spiritual doctor: Jesus. To go to him means to pray to him. Tell him everything that's happening to us, so he can give us the best prescription. If we don't speak, how can he help us? If we don't pray harder, who will pray harder for our sickness?

1st: Pray HardER

Next, we have to take some medicines. Spiritually, it means the words of God. We must study the words of God, whether Sermon or Father's books, for us to receive the water of life. Because if we are spiritually sick, we tend to focus on so many unnecessary things not important for our salvation. And to counterattack the spiritually contagious virus, we must be filled with the spiritual medicine - words of God.

2nd: Study HardER

Lastly, we have to take some rest. Rest doesn't mean to sleep for a long time. To rest means to gain once more the strength and the energy that we lost. Therefore, it has time limitation. After we feel that we've gained enough faith and courage, then we can be back on track. We can spiritually exercise again. But this time, it's much better than that because we're back on track with 10 extra wheels. Therefore, we can become greater vessels.

3rd: Preach HardER

I keep on emphasizing the word "harder" because I know most of us eagerly, and earnestly study and pray, but if we experience this kind of dilemma, it's time to make harder efforts.

Everything that is happening is Satan's way of devouring our soul, telling us, "You're weak. Here's my attack!"

Turn the negative attack into a positive one by telling him, "Yes, I'm weak, but I'd love to give you much greater attack! Challenge accepted."

Let's not be afraid of the negative thoughts but turn it into positive thoughts.

Fight against Satan's scheme, and realize the love of Mother :)

Word of thanks

Firstly, I want to thank Heavenly Father and Heavenly Mother for giving me this precious chance to share my Fragrance of Zion daily.

Here, I'd try to jot down special memories/realizations/pieces of advice/etcetera that are not supposed to be kept hidden. Thus, this blog is especially dedicated for all of my loving brothers and sisters in faith. I hope I could somehow encourage you through this. God bless you po :)

PS: Let's utilize our God-given talents for the glory of our Elohim Gods and bear abundant good fruits!